Man, does God ever put a bug in your ear that just wont leave you alone?
For me, it's a word. I feel like He tries to teach me something through just a little phrase or statement, and for whatever season, that's my theme, and this time, I just can't get it out of my head so I thought I might share it with you!
The theme is: enough.
And I've seen it pop up in a couple of different ways. So to break it down, let's do a little recap. For those of you that don't know, I recently got married (like 2 weeks ago), and recently graduated (like 2 months ago). Talk about a whirlwind. (And, excuse this third side bar, but this also might be why I haven't had a lot of time to work on the blog lately, sorry dear readers.)
And throughout this whole process, I've felt like there hasn't been enough. Enough time, enough patience, enough memories. And I feel like I just kept searching and asking for more. Until, I finally heard the words "enough."
We get so caught up in feeling like whatever we have isn't enough. Like the deadlines we have can't wait for just one second of a breath of fresh air. For me, it felt like there wasn't enough time in the day for all the things that needed done. Then, it started making me feel like my wedding day wouldn't be enough. That I wouldn't feel enough emotions, that there wouldn't be enough food, that my groom wouldn't have enough fun.
Can you believe how convincing fear can be sometimes?
My own wedding wasn't going to be enough for me you guys. Are you serious? That's the problem with our expectations. We set these standards with no real logical rubric, and then we get so caught up on meeting these expectations that no one set for us in the first place.
And so that was my prayer. That my wedding day would be enough. That nothing would be missing, and nothing would be over the top, but rather at the end of the day. I could look back and say "That was just right."
It was. It was the perfect day, all because I refused to linger on pointless expectations. I chose to be grateful, and present in every moment, and it was in that where I found my peace of mind and heart.
And then moving on to the second kicker that came with the word enough.
Sometimes, you have to say it.
There is way too much that you can get caught up in in this world. The drama, the exhaustion, the over commitment. In a world that's convinced that multi-tasking should be the first human function, it's so easy to hyper-extend your energy.
So sometimes you have to say "Enough."
You have to say no. Sometimes you have to say no to good things, and sometimes you have to say no in order to preserve yourself for something much better. I truly believe it is better to bring a full cup to one table, than to bring multiple empty cups to a variety of different ones.
Pick just one thing, and get really good at it.
Maybe you've felt this way before, and maybe you haven't, but if this is something that's been weighing on you heart, then I encourage you to dive into this verse from Corinthians 12:9.
So, whatever you're going through, or whatever day you're having, I hope that it's just enough.
To express, explain, and exclaim the lessons life continually throws at me, and my take on how to deal.