Out with the old, to make room for the new.
Evening dear readers, I'm coming to you live from a freshly polished room. About every few months or so, I get this ridiculous urge that I need to re-organize my entire room, and typically I don't start this project until around 10pm (for reasons unknown) . It usually looks something like this... About the time everyone goes to bed, I'm still wide awake, and not ready to settle in for the night. Rather than laying in bed restless until my eyes finally close, I'll start to clean my room, just tidying things up here and there. Then I'll look at my closet and think Wow, that looks really unorganized, I should probably do something about my mess of a life. So, I do. That sweatshirt I haven't worn since sophomore year, gone. Those sandals that got demolished at the beach last summer, done-zo. The scarves that didn't make the cut to the college closet, see ya later! By the end of the night, I had a bag of garbage, a sack of Goodwill clothes, and a clearer mind. It's a great feeling once all the old has been cleared out. There's a sense of accomplishment, and a feeling of clarity in the air. Like, just because that old raggedy scarf is gone, the world is a much brighter place, less complicated place. It's amazing what a physical sense of organization will do for the mind. Seeing the de-clutter of my closet gives off the illusion that the clutter going on in my head is now organized too. It's a tangible way to feel like things might possibly be in control, even if in reality they aren't. Just like going back to school is going to be a whirlwind of having no control for awhile. New teachers, new classes, new time frames. Talk about chaos. So rather than sitting in realization of this future reality, I chose to demo my closet. Good one Lys. Laying in my bed later that night, I of course reflected on the course of my actions. As I wondered why said purge had to taken place, I realized the root of the problem. No one likes to feel out of control. It's scary, and unnerving, and straight up uncomfortable. So we overcompensate. We schedule things down to the second in our planner, we make a long list of everything that needs to get done... or we clean out the closet. There's nothing wrong with this, unless of course you're ignoring the problem and hiding behind a big mountain of clutter because one day, that mountain will come crashing down on top you, and you'll finally realize what was wrong all along. The key is to sit back at the end of the organization frenzy, and realize what's really going on inside your head. Maybe work's gotten a little crazy, or there's a ton of homework that you just don't have time to get through. Regardless,at some point in our lives things will be out of our control, because we can't always be in the driver's seat. However, we do have the choice to see what's right in front of our faces, and deal with it head on, rather than looking in the rearview mirror and pretending we don't see what's coming. Comments are closed.
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