This girl is back at school, and (possibly) ready to go.
For those of you who don't know, my freshman year of college was tough, and by tough I mean it was one of the toughest years of my life, and, unfortunately, that is not an exaggeration. Between the homesickness, unfamiliar territory, and intensified education I was ready to call it quits after my first semester. Christmas break came and went, as did a wake up call.
It wasn't about having a perfect semester anymore, it was simply about having a better one.
In all honesty, as humans we shouldn't be allowed to use the word perfect, because none of us are and never will be. Unfortunately for us, we live in a society that doesn't believe the same thing. Always wanting more, or the next best thing we live a life of unrelenting expectations. Never satisfied, we search and search looking for something to somehow make us feel better, trying to have the perfect look, life, or for me, college experience.
This revelation hit me around New Years, and then again this fall when going back to school and setting some goals as a meaning of productivity. Life isn't going to be perfect, which is also to say it's never going to be always fair, always easy, or always compliant. It is what it is, and you play the hand you're dealt to the best of your ability. With going back to school, I had to make a change. Even if it was a little one, just something to make my year go a little better than the last one.
This didn't mean my life took a 180 degree turn around, it was more like a 1 degree turn every day.
Whether that was getting into The Word, making healthy meal choices, or working out three days out of the week. By the end of the semester I had done 180 degrees. And little by little I made a difference.
It's not about having that perfect day, or even a great day at that. It's choosing to be better, because when you say "perfection" you've literally just set out on mission impossible. Life happens, expectations remain unmet, and disappointment ensues as imperfection is inevitable. But when all you want is better, you suddenly give yourself a chance. You leave room in your day to smile at people, sip on a cup of coffee, or do something with a friend, and slowly but surely those little moments during the day are all you can remember when you go to sleep.
The word "better" simply means improvement. Surpassing what you can already do, and moving onto the next level. Perfect is a never met standard, (unless of course you're the second coming of Christ, in which case, we need to have a little chat) and something you can chase after but never meet because that's an impassable standard.
Challenge yourself to simply be better. Take a deep breath, lean in, and find something you can do to rest easy at night.
To express, explain, and exclaim the lessons life continually throws at me, and my take on how to deal.